aint gonna let it stress me no more!

i wish things were different, but i guess things "work-out" the way they are supposed to work out...

i guess trying to change things only makes things WORSE...

gotta eat it all up, forget it, and let things be the way they are...

HAPPY CHRISTMAS

Basketball Update

Just a quick update...I'm currently coaching at Dee's alma mater elementary school, Saint Veronica's. Long story short, I was offered a position, thought I was going to be able to coach a fairly good team, but ended up getting the SECOND 6th grade B team. That means, not the A team, not the B team, but the "C" team = B team 2. But you know what, we've been in a tournament in the past three weeks and we are UNDEFEATED baby! And this Saturday is the championship game. That's right boooooiiii...Another trip to the championship game, 3 years in a row, with 3 different teams. Things are looking up!

had to put this one on my blog too! ENJOY...this shit made me crack up!

CLICK HERE...i promise it ain't a porn site.

HAPPY TURKEY DAY...

...everyone! it's pretty amazing that turkey day is already here. that means xmas is approaching. i wanna wish you all a very happy and wonderful holiday season. take the time to be with your loved ones. wish i could be down south to be with my family today, but arrangements were made and turkey day for the villanueva clan will be tomorrow. would have been there earlier but work last night and tonight kills it! anyway, God bless you all!

AWESOME!

WALK IT OUT

WATCH THE WHOLE THING

First of all Dee and I would like to extend our deepest appreciation for all the texts, phone calls, and shout-outs. We have definitely reached a new journey in our relationship and we are very excited to share it with you all!

Dianne, I just realized just now that we barely have any pictures together. We have hecka pictures of friends and other couples, but dang, not too much of us. haha. Anyway I am very excited to be on this journey with you and we will definitely make these times the most memorable. I love you with all that I am!

Damn, we gonna ROCK IT! The DBL-Ds gonna be in full effect! Stay tuned for the PARTAY!!!!!!!

old skoo

so i woke up really late today, like 3pm cause i couldn't sleep last night. didn't get to fall alseep until 530am. my sleeping pattern is really messed up. anyway, i woke up turned on the tv and started to watch HONEY I SHRUNK THE KIDS. damn, what a great movie. weird, but freaking soooo good. i was entertained for about 2 hours. yea that's about it. that's the highlight of my day. anyone watch and great old skoo movies lately??? have a great night all.

Recharge

haven't had a night like that in a while. definitely exhausted. my body is weak and all i want to do is sleep. had a great first 3 hours then everything came crashing down. well not actually but it sure felt that way. co-worker's patient wasn't doing too hot, had to get intubated, had to admit another patient, transfuse blood, finish paper-work (THIS IS DEF THE WORST PART). anyway, glad i have a night off to get some rest and get rejuvenated. i think i really need a vacation. i just remembered that ever since i finished nursing school i still have not had a chance to go on a vacation. i mean a long one, more than 5 days, at least! i'm a bit burnt out. i can't wait till next year. have two weeks vacation and hopefully could join dee and her famz along with my mama to the PI. looking forward to that.

definitely missing my family back home, especially my nephew who i only get to see ever so often, peeps from the OC and USF.

PEAS

FORTUNE COOKIE

"the strengths in your character will bring you serenity"

Few of the FAVS

best music video ever...

thank you elisha & tim for showing this to me!

have you ever been on the road and saw cyclists in a group and all of a sudden see one of them on the floor? well the shittiest and most embarrassing thing happened today. i was on a ride this afternoon with my co-worker and we came to a stop. i freaking forgot to check the screws on my cleats before we started and didn't realize that the screws were loose. so when i tried to unhook myself from my pedals it actually didn't happen and i happen to fall, off my bike, still attached to the bike, unable to get up off the floor, scraped up knee and everything. and you know what...RUSH TIME traffic on one of the most busiest streets in san mateo! damnit! so if you ever see someone fall off their bike, please have some sympathy for them. they may not be as stupid as they look on the floor. there may be an "actual" reason why they fell off their bike.

dee vs dav

a couple of minutes ago, dee said that she has more common sense than i do. i definitely disagree with that. so as of right now i'm taking votes for the next 5 days. who do you think has more commmon sense? keep this in mind...dee gets lost driving from her house to work, which is only 10 minutes away.

Happy Birthday...

...to you both! I want to wish you both the best. Wish I could have been there during this time to celebrate with you guys. You two have always been there for me and I want to let you two know that I am very thankful for everything you do for me and Dee and the rest of our family. Elisha and Tim, God bless you always. I love you both...

Happy 1st BDAY CDK...

let's make a team...

it's been a while. i don't even know what to write about. i guess it's just been really busy this past month. i moved out of my place in the city and have moved closer to work and dee. living in daly city now joining my fellow pilipinos! haha...damn right in the mix of things. naw. it's all good. it's nice to be closer to work. it's only about a 10 min drive and it's really nice to be closer to dee. i pretty much get to see her everyday without having to be at her place everyday. she can actually come over now and chill. so the studio is cool. it's just too bad i got annoying ass people up stairs who love to walk really hard and thump the freaking roof above me. but i guess that's one of the cons of living on the bottom floor. guess i gotta get used to it. so if anyone is ever around the vicinity come through and we can chill. mi casa es su casa.

tonight is going to be my sixth night in a row at work. i'm exhausted, i'm stressed, i'm weary. despite all that i'm still motivated when i get through the doors at work. i wake up and i'm ready. still trying to get myself to believe that this is my career and working as a professional is something i have to accept and realize that there is a reason to show up to work. bills, rent, and saving up are definitely important reasons. it's funny, cause that saying "mo money, mo problems" is freaking REAL. damn, i find myself making a good living but damn, i barely see the money. haha.

oh so check it. i just got my internet, cable and freaking house phone connected. does anyone even do the LAN line thing anymore. i felt so old going into target to buy a CORDLESS with answering machine combination. haha. 27.99 baby! the main reason i had to get a cordless is because my freaking cell don't work in my freaking studio. bad reception. freaking t-mobile man. luckily i got a house phone and i'm also going to be getting the new blackberry baby. this saturday. so hopefully i get reception with that. if you all can't reach my cell, just txt me and i'll hook you up with the house phone.

i miss my family. i miss my irvine folk. and i just miss being lazy and unresponsible. i really miss just leaving everything and going on spontaneity trips. it sucks, cuz now i have to think about getting in trouble if i call into work sick, which i've done several times already this year. hahah...told you, still trying to get used to being professional. anyway, i'm really looking forward to seeing some folks up here in the bay area. you all know who you are. it's going to be phat, yo. we going to be just chillin. no tourist shiet. just chillin in the bay. aite yo, i hope you are all doing well. take care and God bless you all!

INSPIRATION

If you ever think that you can't do something...WATCH THIS! think again and DO IT.

confused. disappointed. unsure. lost. uncertain. wavering. funk. frustrated. stressed. unrest.

sometimes the thing you want the most is not the absolute for both sides. change, acceptance, openness, and willingness are key!

i think the only resolution is to have faith and patience. the time will come...

blood shed

so i was cutting my hair, actually, shaving my head with the clippers and as i was getting close to my ear...CUT...BLOOD SHED. the clippers cut my ear and blood everywhere! damn. well not actually blood everywhere, just on my two fingers. haha. pretty dramatic eh? but seriously though, it hurt like a mother and there was blood. must have been really tired. cause seriously, how do you cut yourself with the buzzer?

anyway for the past week i have been placing my name on the "wants off" list, which is pretty much a list that you can put your name on to get the night off if the patient census is low for the amount of nurses scheduled for the shift. i've put it on for 5 nights. and guess how many i got? NONE. crap. i've been craving a night off to recover, but unfortunately that was unsuccessful. luckily i get a 3 day weekend. oh by the way. the night shift is burning me out! i thought i would be able to handle it. i am getting used to it but it is really hard to stay up all night, go home in the morning to sleep during the day (at least 7 hours), wake up and be rested up for the next night. my body has adjusted somewhat but it's still difficult. i think i need to get on the 12 hour shifts so that i only have to work 3 days out of the week instead of 4. i know that doesn't sound like much, but seriously an extra day off really makes a difference. for those of you who are still in school, TAKE YOUR TIME. don't rush to get a job. the money will be there, the job will be there. i really regret working right after school, because i still haven't had the opportunity to travel. dee and i have been wanting to go somewhere really cool, like europe, canada, japan, australia, hawaii, fiji...hopefully summertime will be the time and i am able to get vacation time. anyone want to join?

wait, one more story. so for some reason i've been getting a lot of gas during the nights i'm working. it's really hard to just leave the unit to go to the bathroom because my patients are pretty unstable at times and you just can't leave. so i made a decision last week that i would just fart in my patients' room and if any of the other nurses were to come in i'd just say the patient farted or just pooped. hahahahaha! is that mean? oh well, i've got to do what i've got to do.

PEAS

WTF

"What if they shrunk to the size of prunes?"

"Dude! If they shrunk to the size of RAISINS I'd still suck on them!"

TRUCKIN

the TRUCK is here and I'm definitely enjoying it. haha. it's kinda weird that i have a new vehicle cuz i've had my old civic for almost 9 years and now it's been replacecd. damn, that was EMO. it's a lot different driving a truck than a regular car, like a civic. it's a lot bigger and you actually get to see things. when i was driving the civic i felt like i had to look up at things. now i'm looking down at all the azn racers. so i got the truck on saturday. i was almost going to call the dealer and cut the deal off because they postponed the delivery date 2 times. first of all i was supposed to get it on april 30th which was 10 days from my requisition. it wasn't in stock anywhere in the bay area so the dealer had to put in a special order and told me it was going to be in within 10 days. april 30th came around and still freaking nothing! so the dealer told me that the truck would be in may 1st. may 1st came and still, NOTHING. freaking aye. the feeling of disappointment. not only was i disappointed, but my brother-in-law and dee were. it was pretty funny. they were as disappointed as i was. i picked up dee from school on the 4th when she came back from her outdoor education trip and she thought i was going to surprise her. unfortunately, no SURPRISE for her. haha. the only surprise that she got was my PRESENCE. LOL. that was EMO too. haha and my brother-in-law called me every single day he got out of work to see if i got it already.
haha...what can you say, i expected it from a car enthusiast. anyway, so the dealer again tells me it would be in from may 3rd to may 5th and i was like what the hell! so long story short may 5th came around and still no call. 4 o'clock came around and i called the dealer to leave a message to cut the deal off and at the same time the dealer calls me when i'm about to leave the message and tells me to pick up the truck cause it was just brought in. despite all the crap i had to go to, i got the best deal that i could up here in the bay area with the exact things that i wanted. i think that = happy DAV!
(i know, the pick on the left is a bit gay! i didn't know what to do...haha. so don't give me shit about it!) more pics to come!

sidekick 3 vs. blackberry 8800

last october i decided to get a new phone. at the time i really wanted to get a blackberry but i ended up getting a sidekick 3. one of the reasons why i got the sidekick 3 was because my fingers were too fat for the blackberry pearl and the blackberry pearl didn't have a full qwerty pad. but just recently they came out with the blackberry 8800, which is pretty much the blackberry pearl with the full qwerty pad. meaning more room for my fat fingers! haha. so i'm thinking about getting it. i really like the sidekick...unlimited txting, web browsing, aim, yahoo messenger, music player, camera, and a whole lot of other crap. unfortunately, up here in the bay area the only people carrying these sidekicks around are BOPPERS. seriously, you go to serramonte mall (BOPPER central) and kids everywhere are carrying them around their necks, texting while they walk, and are in large annoying groups. so that's one big reason why i don't bust it out in public. LOL. dee always makes fun of me and freaking calls me a BOPPER. actually all her cousins do too! haha. so i kinda want to "grow" up now and get something a little more professional. one of the things i really like about the blackberry is the high speed internet, which is lacking in the sidekick 3. check out the photos and help me decide. PLACE YOUR VOTE

VACATION

just read Dante's blog and I would have to agree with him...I am in need of a vacation. i just starting working but i feel like i need to take some time off. from the beginning of nursing school up to now i haven't really taken a REAL vacation. i've taken trips to vegas, so cal, and whatnot but i haven't really had the chance travel. right after nursing school i had to study for NCLEX and while in the process got hired at my hospital. my classmates and i were supposed to go to hawaii but i couldn't join them because i had to work. i keep thinking about talking to my manager so that i could take some time off of work to just RELAX and go somewhere. not sure where, but just somewhere.

dee and i have even talked about going abroad and working. her, teaching while i do my nursing thing. anyone want to join? LOL. we are somewhat serious, but i think we are going to at least spend 1-2 years working here and maybe do it when we are a bit more financially stable. i think it would be an awesome experience to be in another country to work and play!

since april 3rd i've been vehicle-less. it's seriously one of the most aweful feelings ever! i guess living in southern california made me rely heavily on driving everywhere. when i moved up here to the bay area i didn't use my little civic as much as i did cause getting around the city is a lot easier at times using public transportation. but having a vehicle at hand made me feel a little more at ease if i was too lazy to take bart or muni. now, i've been borrowing dee's car, having her drop me off at work, pick me up and help me run errands. i am extremely thankful for her. her parents have been really understanding too, allowing me to take the car when dee doesn't use it. my truck should be ready this week (hopefully tomorrow) for pickup. i am definitely going to feel a lot better when i have my own vehicle again!

gian, dante...get a freakin truck and we'll be truck buddies! haha...dang that sounds awkward. but seriously, get trucks.

oh by the way, i've QUIT the shoe game like a month ago. no more jordans, no more dunks, no more AF1s. i'm pretty sad about it but i ain't gonna get emo about it...gotta start saving for some important things that cannot be mentioned at this time. as the time comes i'll mention these unmentionables. but seriously not buying shoes every weekend really keeps my bank account at a positive...LOL

peace

can you believe it's already May? where is the time going? January 16th was my first day on the job as a Registered Nurse and I really can't believe that May 1st is already here because tonight marks the last night for ICU orientation. starting tomorrow night I'll be on my own without people watching over my back minute after minute. it wasn't a bad experience but it sure was a lot of pressure performing nursing care while fellow co-workers analyzed and critiqued each move I made. this also included a multitude of suggestions of how "they would do it" and for me to "find my own way"! CONFUSING!!! you think one way is good and then another nurse comes along and says this might be better. damnit, where is the continuity and consistency. i guess that's what makes the nursing profession dynamic and challenging. there is seriously NO one answer. i'm sure over time i'll find my own ways and hopefully become one of those nurses others look up to!

it was an awesome weekend. way too short, but it was definitely worth the time. everytime i go back down south i always wish the time went by slower. was only able to spend less than one day in irvine and less than one day with my family. congratulations to LOG for an awesome spirit rally. liwanag still amazes me. it's been about 2 years since my last meeting as an official member and there are sooo many new faces. i'm glad that there is still excitement and love for the group. i am sooo thankful that i was able to see somne alums this weekend. seeing these group of people reminds me how much liwanag has influenced and molded many lives. i pray that future generations continue to strive to make liwanag a family that new and old faces can come home to! i really mean that!









here are some pics of my family...can't believe my nephew is growing so fast. wish i could be there more often to see him grow up. miss and love you mom, dad, ate, elisha, tim, charles!

the nursing crew...

just got home from a LONG nite! 9 straight hours of work with NO breaks. Not even a 15 minute break. NOTHING!!! one busy nite, but it was all worth it.

thank you Lord for being my strength and providing me the Gift to HEAL!

NOW...BEDTIME (well deserved)

Shopping for a truck is definitely NOT like buying a pair of shoes. See whenever I see a pair of shoes I know whether or not I want to purchase them. See I look for certain things in shoes. #1: Colorway (clean look or Crazy/Funky) #2: Will they BREAK NECKS! #3: Could I ROCK 'em...

This whole vehicle shopping thang is sooo freaking difficult. I think the biggest difference is that I have to negotiate with people and I could only buy ONE. Shoes on the other hand is a totally different story. When a shoe is released with several different colorways and I'm diggin the kicks I just buy ALL of them not having to worry about not getting the better one. Wish I could buy all the different Tacomas...haha...Very soon I'll be driving in my very own Tacoma.

Getting Ready!

GONE!

see you in two weeks.

woke up this morning with the sun beating down through the window...i think it's going to be a good day. it's been pretty gloomy and cold up here. seeing sunshine really changed the mood. hope it's here to stay. don't mind the coldness but the sun needs to stay.

so this morning i dropped off dee at MD (that rhymes) so that she could begin her morning at school early. while i was driving, dee started her daily routine of beautifying her face. the funny thing is, she for some reason was fixated on ONE eyebrow. supposedly it was messed up. i couldn't really tell, but you know being the good boyfriend of 4 years i've learned to say "naw...you LOOK GOOD!" pretty good eh? anyway, for like 5 minutes she was like "david, it hella looks messed up!!!" and i was like dude it's a freaking eyebrow "you wanna call in sick?" haha...does that sound like dee? haha...sounds like it to me. love her anyway!

here's a quick update...

got into a car accident last tuesday. car is totalled. no more civic. waiting for the insurance company to tell me how much they gonna give me for my car. DAMN! pretty messed up. wasn't planning to buy a new car until summer time, but i guess this is going to be speeding up the process. 2007 tundra or 2007 tacoma? still unsure. definitely staying away from the rice rockets. haha.

MD Varsity Boy's basketball team lost in the semi-final game. it's all good. it was a good season nonetheless! overall record 11-5. that includes one championship, 2nd place in another tournament, and a playoff spot during league play. can't ask for anything more from a team that has only won 1 game in their last 4 years. i'd say that's NOT BAD!

dee and her family are preparing for their 2007 Philippines trip! Pray for them, pray for their safety and pray that their presence in the Philippines brings hope and joy to their family and friends!

Peace my brothers and sisters! Miss you all!

This Saturday March 10, 2007 the Mater Dolorosa 8th Grade Boy's Varsity basketball team is going to be playing in their very first league semifinal playoff game. I'm really proud of these kids. When we began in November of last year it was difficult to even determine whether or not we could even win one game. Before I started coaching at MD the boys only won 1 game over the past 4 years! Can you believe that...and from the time we all got together till this day, the Royals have won 11 games and have only 4 losses. They were champions in a holiday tournament, came in second place in another holiday tournament and is currently 4-3 in league. So I would say these kids came a LONG WAY and are still not done. These kids have a lot of heart and are finally figuring out what basketball is all about, what it means to play with respect and class and to have other teams feel threatened when they enter the gym for game time. They are no longer the team that everyone makes fun of and blows out, but they are the team to beat!!! I only pray that they are ready to play this Saturday and hopefully this Sunday for the North Division Championship! Pray for us. Wish you all were here to see these kids in action.

For some strange reason I woke up this morning to watch the news on T.V. I usually don't watch the news because there really isn't much going on except more and more crap about the dumb war or something like that! Anyway, there was a Pastor from a San Francisco Parish who was interviewed about the non-complaining bracelet (it's called something like that). Basically, this bracelet is worn for 21 days straight. If you could go without complaining about something, no matter how big or how small you could take it off. However, if you do end up complaining about something you have to switch the bracelet to the other hand and continue wearing it until you go 21 straight days. I thought this was such an awesome concept. Now that I think of it, I complain a lot. I definitely wouldn't go 21 days straight, but I guess I gotta try. I didn't really give anything up for Lent this year, but I did make a prayer to God that I will do my best to pray more each day. I know Lent has already started but I know it's never to late to add something to the Lenten spirit. I am going to try my best to not COMPLAIN about things and take things as they are. As the Pastor said, refraining from complaints can have a positive outcome on emotional and spiritual health. I really pray that I am successful with this because I know that there is much more that you and I can focus on besides complaining about things and especially about others. How much time do you spend complaining each day about something? Have you gone one day without complaining about something or someone? Let's give this a try and focus more on accepting what goes on throughout the day and even accept those who can get underneath our skin.

Grace for the Moment - Max Lucado: February 27

You have been saved by God's grace. - Ephesians 2:5

Read slowly and carefully Paul's description of what God has done for you: "When you were spiritually dead because of your sins and because you were not free from the power of your sinful self, God made you alive with Christ, and he forgave all our sins. He canceled the debt, which listed all the rules we failed to follow. He took away that record with its spiritual rulers and powers of their authority. With the cross, he won the victory and showed the world that they were powerless" (Col. 2:13-15).

As you look at the words above, answer this question. Who is doin the work? You or God? Who is active? You or God? Who is doing the saving? You or God?

...Thought I would share that!

February 16 - February 18 is definitely going to be a time to relax and catch up with some homies. Looking forward to this weekend. It's going to be nice to just hang out and not worry about work and especially school!

LOST

Before I passed my board exam Dee kept telling me that she had a feeling that I was going to be lost when I finished with all the studying. And you know what, I think I am. I am really enjoying work, but when I get home I feel like I need to be doing things. The truth of the matter is that there isn't anything for me to do! haha. Over the past year and a half I've been in and out of classrooms, interning from hospital to hospital and filling my brain with as much information as possible in order to be successful in my examinations. Now that I think of it, I felt like a machine. No stopping! I just let the pistons run wild until the end of it all. At the end of my last semester and all the way through my studying for the NCLEX I felt very BURNT out. No motivation to study for hours upon hours, but I still took the time out to be at Starbucks or the Library to "fill" the time! Now there's no more studying, just WORK. In one aspect, it feels hecka good to not be studying, but I guess my last year and a half at school has programmed me to keep on working. I don't know...I think I just need to get used to working hard and enjoying my time as a "FREE" man.

Maybe I could fill the time with BLOGGING? haha...12:55 in the afternoon and I'm blogging. Kinda weird. See that's how much time I have!

PEAS

oh yea...please pray for my friend's grandma who is being taken off the ventilator today! pray for her soul and pray that their family will be able to find comfort in our LORD!-AMEN

...it was definitely His will...

Thank you all who prayed for me and continue to pray for me. Prayers are definitely gifts from God!

7 DAYS LEFT...

till the big EXAM - NCLEX. Nervous, anxious, unsure. Underneath it all, trying to place the TRUST in HIM. This exam means a lot. Not just the license, not just the job, but the things proceeding all of these. A career and a life planned out to heal those who are sick! This exam means a lot to us, Dee. Gonna try my best and nothing less.

+BiL

In less than 2 weeks from today I'll be starting my first job as a MURSE. Still can't figure out what I'm feeling about it. I'm really excited that I'm finally done with nursing school and can finally begin my career, but I can't help feeling a bit worried and scared. I guess I can only pray that I will have the strength, knowledge and preparedness to be a successful murse. Honestly, I feel the same way I did when I graduated from UCI...confused, worried, and for some reason inadequate. But I guess the only way to get over these feelings is to believe and trust in Him. Wow...it's so easy to type and say that, but the reality of it is that it's much more difficult to do so.

You will know that God's power is very great for us who believe. - Ephesians 1:19

I spoke with a classmate today and we agreed that the majority of us are so self absorbed that we forget about who we really are and what we as Christians are called to do. For instance, our society for some reason has programmed us to seek money, become greedy and compete against one another in order to succeed. But what is the real definition of success? Money? Power? Social Acceptance?...who knows! I will honestly say that I am guilty of these. I'm not proud of it but again, this is how we "survive" in today's society. However, we all need to remember to take a step back and reflect on the reasons why we have chosen a certain profession and why God has planned out our lives to be the way it is. REFLECT. Let's be Christ-like and focus on helping one another to strive for excellence rather than competing with one another for the sole purpose of "SUCCEEDING". I truly believe that helping one another will only result in positive outcomes. When was the last time you stepped back, removed yourself from yourself and put others first so that they could be one step closer to success?

It's late...sorry if that totally didn't make sense. It sounded right to me...haha

New Year's Resolution: REFLECT more on the blessings He showers me with!