already???

can't believe january is already over. where did this month go? it seems like now a days time keeps going by faster and faster. i really miss my family. really want to see charles and try to have a conversation with him. my parents said he's starting to talk a lot more. damn, wish i was there. will definitely be there some time in february.

so having no cable tv SUCKS! i finally got internet again, but no cable or digital tv. i really miss it. all i do is watch the same ol dvds over and over again, and have watched almost every single friends episode X3. haha...but seriously, i have. contemplating whether or not to get cable again. i really don't have time to watch but it is nice to have when i do have time.

state of funk

over the past several nights i've been thinking a lot about my health and the way i take care of myself, especially when i get home from work. my unit has recently been getting a lot more patients in our age range. can you believe that? 25, 30, 35 year olds being admitted to the ICU!!! unbelievable. on several occasions i've taken care of these young adults and wondered, WHY? why this young, why them, why this family??? it's scary people. as a health care professional, i take pride and am motivated to care for the sick and dying! i think i'm good at what i do and i am very blessed that God has allowed me to be His healing hands and have had the opportunity to learn and become educated in the field of medicine. that's an awesome gift. unfortunately, there's a sad component to this: i take care of these people yet i don't care for myself. i eat horrible food, don't exercise the way i used to, and stress myself out over things i shouldn't be worrying about. i think about it more and more and have come to realize that i'm just putting myself at just the same risk that my patients have put themselves through. and look at where they have ended up. in an ICU. SAD, UNFORTUNATE, REAL! i really need to shape up and remember that i'm only 27 and have a whole life ahead of me and in order to see that life i need to take care of myself, medically, emotionally, and physically! my friends, take care of yourselves!

peas

random thoughts

someone please tell dee to blog something new. i'm pretty tired of seeing the same photo for over a month. has it been a month? i don't remember. anyway, anyone here about the freaking satellite coming to earth in about a month. freaking aye if i saw a freakin bus sized thing flying in the air and coming right at me...damn i don't even know what to think. haha. would i even have time to think. wtf. shouldn't we blow that shit up before it hits something. our country spends hella money on national security yet they can't prevent something from flying into earth that has the possibility of killing people? haha. i'm just talking jibberish. but not really. but you know what i mean right? am i even making any sense. i'm tired. i got work tonight. one night left, then one night off. then back for 2 nights. anyway, i think i'm in need of a trip to so cal to see family and friends. aite ya'll take it easy.

FINALLY

... a win! 3 wins 3 losses. gotta keep going. i hope it gets better. playoffs?

things i want...

...BUT can't have!!!

at least for the time being

- nikon D300
- AF-S DX VR Zoom-NIKKOR 18-200mm f/3.5-5.6G IF-ED
- tattoo
- lift kit for truck

DONATIONS anyone???? haha...jk

does anyone realize what a year it's going to be for jordan brand. i think there is only one person that will understand, dante derrick david...daayyyymmm. this year will definitely be the year of bankruptcy for many. shoe release every single month with multiple releases. i'm definitely staying away. actually, maybe not. not crazy shoe shopping but just enough to keep me SANE and left with some money. this year will definitely test me to save, save, save and see how i keep up with my priorities.

on another note, looks like Philippines 2008 is going to happen. really getting excited to go.

REASONS:

1) mom is going
2) dee and her fam are going
3) first time to visit the home land
4) will be there during holy week
5) will meet my mom's side of the family
6) food, shopping, and fun

unfortunately, my dad ain't gonna be able to go. he's been a little sick in the past couple of weeks and he might be susceptible to getting even more sick. please pray for his health and pray that he gets well soon.

PRAYER

please pray for my brother-in-law's nephew. he's really sick and needs every single one of your prayers!!! i usually don't ask people to pray for me much, but this time is different. please be the awesome prayer warriors i know you all are!

STAY STRONG, JADEN!!!

my biggest challenge for this month is to join a gym, lose fat weight, gain muscle weight and start trying to look decent for engagement photos. really don't know when that's going to happen, though.

FINALLY

went into work last night, checked my mailbox and FINALLY saw my official 12 hour schedule. i've been trying to switch over to 12 hour shifts for quite some time now. many benefits to it! only have to work 3 times a week, get more time off, and get paid more. can't complain about those 3 reasons. i even had to "threaten" work that if they weren't able to grant me 12 hour shifts that i would quit. i was actually serious, too. it really makes a big difference. so starting feb 10 12 hour shifts are in full effect. will definitely have more time to go down south and visit my family.

speaking of family...i miss them! it's only been 2 weeks since i last saw them but i really do miss hanging out with them. we usually don't do much when i go down with dee. our usual routine is EAT, hangout, EAT, rest, EAT, sleep, and then all over again. worth it! haha...but seriously, it's just really nice to be in their presence. miss and love you guys.

Frustrating

It's now 0412 in the morning and i've been trying to sleep for the past 2.5 hours. this is one of the things i hate about working nites, can't sleep. i was laying in bed eyes closed, but wide awake! sucks. HEEEEELLLPPP...i need to sleep.

Philippines 2008

Ever since last year, Dianne has been encouraging me to go along with her and her family to the PI this year. I've been approved for vacation at work and things were all good. I really want to go and I've even asked my parents if they would like to go back home. Both my mom and dad agreed, but I'm still hesitant. And the main reason...WEDDING '09. Not saying this is a bad thing, but getting engaged really changed a lot of things. PRIORITIES, I guess is the main concern. You know it's really hard to save for a wedding!!!! Freaking aye. There's so much that I want to do as a single person, but I get so stressed out sometimes cause I really want to be able to have an awesome wedding with Dee! It's funny, cause this wedding stuff is freaking so weird and foreign to me. Dee talks about all this stuff and I just nod my head, not because I don't want to talk about it, but because I have no clue as to what or how I should respond. I guess it's the same way when I talk to Dee or others about nursing or cycling. So back to my main point. Philippines 2008. YES OR NO? I think I should really pray about this and determine what my priorities are.

PEAS

EFFIN FLU SHOT

So I got the flu shot last friday for the first time in my life and the only reason why I got it was because I got a letter in my box at work stating that in order to continue employment at MPHS I needed to get the flu shot. Freakin aye...I should have read the entire sheet cuz I ended up getting the flu the following day. Got stuffed up, unable to breath out of my right nostril, dripping snot and the whole shieeeettt. Then on Sunday I ended up getting body aches. DAMN the flu shot. So guess what the back sheet said. If you decide to decline the flu shot please submit the declination form to HR. DAMNIT...LESSON to be learned. Read everything. I ended up calling in sick for 2 days. What a waist of PTO (paid time off). Rather saved those hours for some snowboarding. Oh well! Guess I gotta work more to make that time up.

GOOD TIMES