LONG NIGHT

it was definitely a long night on my shift...the shift went by pretty quick, but i just found myself making little mistakes here and there and it just kinda made my shift feel a little longer than it was...my preceptor said i did a "great" job, but in my head i was thinking "is she just saying that"? anyway...i called dee at around 2am to tell her that my shift had been getting "bad" and she just kept reminding me that i WILL have "off" days and that it is okay...it's that perfectionist in me that gets me this way...I HATE IT!!! that personality trait can really be detrimental to one's being, and it puts a lot of pressure on someone...so much pressure that i feel that there is no room for ERROR! i hate errors, but i know they are inevitable, and they only allow you to learn and get better at what you do...anyone have any clues how to get rid of the personality trait, cuz if you do send them right over cuz i'm in need of an awakening! i try really hard every single day to do things and let them be the way they are suppose to be, but my mind keeps telling me to "do it better" "no mistakes"...need to step back and look at myself...look at how much stress and pressure i put on myself, when mistakes only allows for learning opportunities! pray that i may allow myself to see that in MYSELF!

peas my brothers and sisters...time to sleep!